During the last season of HBO’s Six Feet Under, life was aptly summarized in 4E’s. Everyone. Everywhere. Everything. Ends. No matter how you live your life, truth is, it will eventually end.
There was a time that I loathed happy endings, be it in movies, television shows or novels. I thought they were just sorts of fantasies existing in imaginations and dreams, or escapes to the real essence of life. Death is after all a topic no one wants, nor comfortable, to talk to.
Indeed, I don’t talk about death to anyone. In my quiet moments, lots of questions regarding it are being raised, yet no hints of answers. Scenarios of seeing any of my loved ones waving a permanent goodbye are very painful to foresee. Or leaving them without permission is also very hard. When will be my last sleep? Theirs? Fictional dialogues are not helping me either, they are increasing the stress level.
There was a time that I loathed happy endings, be it in movies, television shows or novels. I thought they were just sorts of fantasies existing in imaginations and dreams, or escapes to the real essence of life. Death is after all a topic no one wants, nor comfortable, to talk to.
Indeed, I don’t talk about death to anyone. In my quiet moments, lots of questions regarding it are being raised, yet no hints of answers. Scenarios of seeing any of my loved ones waving a permanent goodbye are very painful to foresee. Or leaving them without permission is also very hard. When will be my last sleep? Theirs? Fictional dialogues are not helping me either, they are increasing the stress level.
Funny that I do not like the way how death is avoided mostly in produced entertainments but I am too afraid to accept that it will soon come my way.
Weird.
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Hmm... repetition ;)
ReplyDeletei think so.. :-)
ReplyDeletemasakit sa una but we have to accept that death is certain..i think we have to prepare ourselves for it..
ReplyDelete@mamang, hehe, im trying to be ready. but thinking about it. di ko kaya hehe
ReplyDeletei think your feelings are universal; we all think about death and are afraid of it when it finally comes our way....while most of go through life thinking it will come in the twilight of our years, i often wonder how i would cope if i KNEW it was coming sooner....i've seen many loved ones (young and old) die - some deaths have been tragic in their knowledge of it, others have been accepted as the inevitable end and they go in peace....i often wonder which of these two i will be...
ReplyDeleteNice post - death is an unknown but known. I don't think one can actually be ready for it...but I don't know...either.
ReplyDeleteI must admit, I have no fear of death. It's the run up to it that scares the hell out of me.
ReplyDeleteDeath is the only constant. Why should it scare us?
ReplyDeleteprove my love
Wait 'til you are my age.
ReplyDeleteI have been almost there, but I was helped to turn back. For now.
ReplyDeleteA great picture, and the end for oss all, the only trouth!!! Like the picture.
ReplyDeleteI used to have similar thoughts - but now as see death as a universal experience, and I feel that I will just be going to join everyone that has gone before me. I don't think death will be lonely.
ReplyDeleteIt is a very striking image - are they war graves? The sheltering tree is beautiful.
Striking picture and post!
ReplyDeleteI love it and the fact that you always make me think.
Wonderful photograph and thoughtful post.
ReplyDeleteSo evocative.
ReplyDeleteThe gloom was dispersed, at least for me, by the other photos on your flickr photo stream.
ReplyDeleteI liked your thought provoking post and musings. I waver in between- frustrated too.. due to much of the aspect of death being glossed over, sappy..or just not really touching any real depth?
ReplyDeleteGreat photo capture with your thoughts-
Very interesting indeed.
ReplyDeleteI chose to post pics from a cemetery walk too
http://reesspace.blogspot.com/2009/09/cemetery-angels.html
:) nothing weird about it! live life when you can! why worry about something which is inevitable?!
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